CATERPILLAR

AWKWARD FEELING Gak kerasa banget, usiaku sudah menginjak seperempat abad. Rasanya masih gak percaya, aku sudah berjalan selama ini. Ada berbagai macam perasaan yang sudah pernah dirasakan. Kepuasan, kesenangan, kesedihan, kecewa, dan kehilangan.  Sejauh aku melangkah, aku baru menyadari satu hal bahwa aku tidak pernah benar-benar menyelesaikannya degan tuntas. Mengembangkan bakat menulis, ketika udah menang dan masuk nominasi beberapa kali, aku merasa cukup. Puas. Dulu juga gitu, ketika aku belajar persiapan SBMPTN, nilai tryoutku sempat masuk ke nilai tertinggi pertama, setelah mencapai itu, semangat belajarku menurun dan rankingnya jatuh. Untungnya ada pak Anggi, yang ngeboost semangatku buat bangkit lagi. Pun dengan dunia kreativitas, ketika aku merasa cukup puas dengan hasil editingku, ya sudah. Cukup sampai di sana.  Pun dengan menghafal Qur'an, udah hafal beberapa juz, eh melempem. Akhirnya, sekarang hafalan Qur'annya tertinggal kepingan kepingan semata. Sebenarnya, ada

 Life is hard i miss my old soul

DEAR NO ONE I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don't gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me the jacket when it's cold Got that young love even when we're old sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end So if you're out there, I swear to be good to you But I'm done lookin' for my future someone 'Cause when the time is right You'll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song I don't really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space But I'd love to have a soul mate And God'll give him to me someday And I know it'll be worth the wait So if you're out there, I swear to be good to you But I'm done lookin' for my future someone 'Cause when the time is right You'll be here, but for now Dear no o